Agron Llakaj's touching note for his Kostandina: Like Hachiko, I have become waiting for eternity
2024-07-24 09:55:37
TiranaPost
Agron Llakaj remained totally silent throughout his wife's battle with the serious illness, but after her loss, he surrendered to his feelings, which he shows publicly on every commemoration day. He reminds Kostandinina every day, every moment, every step, every movement, in fact, but on marked days he finds the strength to write the most emotional statuses that a man can dedicate to the woman he has lost.
"Today 2 months without you!
Days pass and once again we are overwhelmed by your absence, Constantine, and I look at life completely differently.
How senseless is this fate of ours?!
I put it off for a day, a week. Today it's been 2 months, I keep thinking that you will come back to me again and you never did.
I walk down the street and it seems to me that you will appear in front of me, you were at work, in the bank or somewhere.
I walk from the lake and the steps coming back from everyone resemble the rhythm of your steps..,.how many times I instinctively turn my head..,.slow down the pace to wait for you.., and again alone.
I sit at our place in the cafe and always order two, two halves of coffee and a bottle of water.
At home, every movement and opening and closing of the door makes everyone nervous. Are you coming?!
"I brought you two blouses, try which new one is better?!"
I miss your laugh.. I miss your voice on the phone-" what about Agron?!
Rest a little, don't go without eating...shall I wait for you or will I be late?!"
The days push one another, the moon and the sun continue to change places...I don't...I'm waiting for you.
And like Hachiko, I have turned into waiting, waiting until eternity... I don't have a place where I can wait for you, in every place I miss you", writes Agron Llakaj.
